I touch your lips and stare in your eyes.

You smile. and it makes me fly.
You are the reason my heart beats.
Dearest Love,
I hope this message finds you well.
As these endless thoughts drip from my soul.
I try to find the courage within me to say it aloud. Those three beautiful sacred words....
I love you.
I can't bring myself to do just that.
but i feel it.

I can honestly say I do.
Every boy was just a toy for me to play with.
I got bored and threw them away.
But... this was a line I used.
You're different.
You are. And you are the reason my heart beats.
Tonight, It'll be just you and me.
I know what you mean when you say you don't need sex.
If you don't then I don't.
I can deal with that.
Because the little moments.
The ones with me laying by you and hearing your heart beat.
Those are the ones I want to remember.
I'm giving you my heart. My whole heart. Take care of it dear.
It's been shattered before... but I trust you.
I trust you'll take care of it.
And Darling.
I love you.

Avec tout mon coeur,
Tasha Marie Gurney

I just saw Jordann. :D

(Baby) why are you doing this to me?!
(Sweetheart) Are those your eyes staring straight back at me?
(Angel) I see your smile everywhere!
(Darling, stop)

Night falls and I'm running in circles.
I'm being chased by my imagination.

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine.
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine.
No one deserves to live like this!

I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me

Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my return
Lightning nips at my heels as I race home
Wearily I stagger towards the song of her pale voice
Demons jeer my attempt to be free

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine
No one deserves to live like this

I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight its just you and me

Windows cast her gentle reflection
Her somber silhouette dances for me
Dear God, it's her

Look at you, you miserable fool
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devils door

Ive been expecting you for some time, sir
Allow me to introduce myself
I'm the one who pulls on all the strings, son
You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand

Tonight I raise my glass for I know its time to move on
(this can't be real. there's nothing left)
My patience will not last, tomorrow I will be gone
(all hope has failed. Ive lost my soul)

Tasha. On love.

Jordann and Jacob broke up.. she is heartbroken. I can hear it in the words she isn't saying.I can hear it in the way she's behaving. I can hear her. Screaming. Screaming in sadness. In sorrow. In hatred. Not hatred because she hates him. But another hatred. Hatred because she loves him. Loved..
Love can be such a nasty thing. Such a horrible heartbreaking thing. It can be better. it WILL be better. you just have to look deep within yourself and you will see it. The beautifulness within love.

I will always love. Always. This is one promise I can actually keep.

With all my Love,
Tasha Marie.

Lost in Mexico- Album 3(Fuck if we know)

I woke up one morning
Hungover as shit.
Just as the sun lit.
I thought I'd forget
and never have to think about it.
Fuck
I just got hit by a truck
Dude, couldn't even spare a buck.
Just my luck.
I'm stuck.
I look at John,
Where the fuck is my lawn?
He doesn't know
Where the fuck do we go?
Fuckin lost in mexico
on the bathroom floor in Texaco.
So we get up and decided
what decision should be provided?

(Incomplete. You like?) :)

You know what I realized? (That I'm dying?)

Dear people who read this,
Shuddup. :) Just kiddinggg. I really miss you guyss. :( I never realized that I have gone through sooo many guys in such a short period of time...
Jeremy. didn't like him more than a friend.
Brent. Let's just say... it didn't work out.
now... Josh.
I don't want to fucking jinx it this time. sooo. lets just see where this goes? I'm a teenager. desperate for love.. Not just any love.
True. Wholesome. Unconditional. Love.
I want the love that everyday you look at that person and love them even more.
I want the love that makes it hard to be angry at them even when you should be.
I want the love that the old people walking through the park holding hands has.
I want the love that is simply given and never has to be asked for.

That's what I want. That is what I am searching for.
I have never had any sexual relations with any of these boys. (For the record)
So. Call me a whore. A slut. A skank.
All I'm looking for is Love.

Avec mon coeur, Adieu.
(With my heart, Goodbye)
Tasharella.

Tears Don't Fall

Hiii.
I am soo happy!
The homecoming dance was yesterday. So amazing. My favorite song... RUDE BOY. I loved it. As you can guess why. Oh and today I learned why people kiss with their eyes shut! If you kiss with your eyes shut it puts all of your focus on themm. :D
Oh and the new beau. The FRESHMAN. YEAHHH!!!
COLTON. yes . so now you know.

In School Blogging aka Homecoming.

Home coming. The craziest time of you high school career. It is hilarious, but blink one too many times and it will pass in an instant. You see. It's almost over. Do you wanna know about my issues?
Course you do, that's why you follow me. I have dated my best friend and three days later. We broke up. I can barely talk to him. I can't actually. I will love him until the day I die. And I guess that's what kills me. Literally. I will always love him and sometimes the pain of that unreturned love is so great. I just can't live with it. I will try. Take it day by day.

Homecoming Dance.

Who doesn't have a homecoming dance? I think each dance is like a little flower. So articulate. So. Beautiful. I am crushed though I don't know what I should do. I like Colton.
And then there's Sam... He broke my heart in 8th grade, and now he likes me again. Here's how I think of that situation. Fool me once, Shame on you. Fool me twice, Shame on me.
So I will pay for myself and go with Colton.
There I have decided.
The only CON about Colton is that he is a FRESHMAN. Well I hear the Seniors screaming in the hallways. Until next time.

With Love,
Tasha Marie
xoxo

Twitter. Glee. and lovee. :)

I have joined Twitter after swearing up and down that I wouldn't and guess what???
I freaking love it!!!

I watched Glee yesterday and I am now a Gleek foreverr.
I AM A GLEEK. :D

I am still in the midst of writing my ten different books. My reasoning on writing so much is I write with mood.

I am absolutely crazy in love with three different male actors. It weirds me out. Okay so the three are Edward Furlong, John Cusack and Vincent D'Onofrio. It's weirdddd.

So I was thinking earlier today and what I thought of is. That I will never EVER become famous. Unless its for something really stupid. :/ Like tripping off of a two story building because i thought I saw a carebear. wow.

I cannot wait to see the expendables. It is gonna be awesome!! LIKE NINJAS VS ZOMBIES. whoo!!

So have a wonderful day. :)
Love each other.
A little smile goes a long way.
Love love love,
Tasharella.

Tashies First song!!?!?!?

It's just one of those days where I reallyreallyreally want to punch my computer in the face. Where is the face.. Its the screen. and it just angers me so much when its slow.

I believe in love. I believe in it stronger than anything else. (I dont really know if there is god.) Love is something that most cannot go without. It's a power feeling. Like you feel on top of the world. Or drunk off of it. Love is the perfection in humans. :)

ON TOP OF THE WORLD-Tasha Gurney
I dont care if the sun falls on me,
it's the place I gotta be.
me laying with you
with nothing to do.

And maybe you feel the same way
if only today.
all I know is that I feel like im on top of the world.
Nothing can knock me down, Im on top of the world.

You catch me gazing at you
in the perfect sunlight.
I can feel your heart beat too.
And it feels so right.

I can feel the love flow through,
and it sticks to my heart like glue.
You brush my hair out of my face.
this is just the perfect time and the perfect place.

maybe, you feel the same way
if only for today.
all I know is that it feels like Im on top of the world.
Nothing can knock me down, Im on top of the world.

then the sunlight goes gray
and theres nothing to say.
There's no one to blame.
Other than cupid with his bad aimm.

So at night I when I cry
and scream out why.
All you have to say
is that you're walking away.

You dont feel the same way.
Not another day.
Some bad boy knocked me down from on top of the world.
Now my pain has all unfurled.

But, baby, I dont care if the sun falls on me.
It was the time that I loved.
and the place to be.



You all can make it. Love will knock you down. Just remember all the good times you both had. Even if it makes you cry. Just don't regret your past.
I love you :)

Sincerely,
Tasha Marie

NO SLEEP FOR THE WICKED.

whos your daddy?? Oh him? okay..

I was thinking. maybe i should work on another poem. It would be nice. I dont really know. I can't wait for school. Whoo. and then... after like three days of it. Im like okay.. thats enough. go away. hahah. well short today. love love love.

Eminem- Love the way you lie.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That’s alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry? That’s alright because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.
I can’t tell you what it really is. I can only tell you what it feels like. And right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe. I can’t breathe but i still fight while I can fight. As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight. High off of love drunk from my hate. It’s like i’m huffin’ paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate. And right before i’m about to drown, She resuscitates me, she fuckin hates me. And I love it, wait, where you goin’? I’m leavin’ you, no you ain’t come back. We’re runnin’ right back, here we go again. Its so insane, cause when it’s goin’ good its goin’ great. I’m superman with the wind in his back, she’s Lois Lane. But when its bad its awful, I feel so ashamed I snap. Whose that dude? I don’t even know his name. I laid hands on her. I never stoop so low again. I guess I don’t know my own strength.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That’s alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry? Thats alright because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe. When your with em you meet . And neither one of you even know what hit em. Got that warm fuzzy feeling. Yeah them chills used to get em. Now you’re getting fuckin sick of lookin’ at em. You swore you’d never hit em, never do nothin’ to hurt em. Now you’re in each other’s face spewin’ venom in your words when you spit em. You push pull each other’s hair. Scratch, claw, hit em throw em down pin em. So lost in the moments when you’re in em. It’s the face that’s the culprit, controls you both. So they say it’s best to go your seperate ways. guess that they don’t know ya. Cause today that was yesterday. Yesterday is over, it’s a different day. Sound like broken records playin’ over. But you promised her next time you’ll show restraint. You don’t get another chance. Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again. Now you get to watch her leave out the window. guess that’s why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That’s alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry? That’s alright because I love the way you lieI love the way you lie.
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn’t mean. And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine. But your temper’s just as bad as mine is, you’re the same as me. When it comes to love you’re just as blinded.Baby please come back, it wasn’t you, baby it was me!Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems. Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. All I know is I love you too much to walk away though. Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk. Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when i talk? Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball. Next time I’m pissed I’ll lay my fist at the drywall. Next time there won’t be no next time. I apologize even though i know its lies. I’m tired of the games i just want her back. I know I’m a liar if she ever tries to fuckin’ leave again. I’ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That’s alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry? That’s alright because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie.



so... that's the song that's been going through my head. And to me.. Well. I don't know. I haven't been able to express myself like I used to. It's wierd, you know? I had so much to say before. I'll get back to my old self again soon. I haven't seen my friends at all these past few weeks. I don't feel like it. I'm probably afriad that he's gonna be there. I should have never went. But you need to face your fears sometime. Just not the day after you're broken up with. Totally sucked. I never felt so... I don't know.


So just stand there and watch me burn. You may be blindfolded by how okay I pretend to be, but that's alright. I should be able to express myself better. I am so afriad of people leaving me because Im crazy, paranoid, controling, maybe even manipulating. And every single time I express this to them.. The relationship ends. So, I'll just lay there and burn, even if you don't see me.

omg. Welcome home, Tashiee. lol

I am crazy with news. literally. So I am dating the most increadable guy ever. his name? Patrick. He is just amazinggg.

I am so bored. Nothing to do. I just may put my hair up tomorrow. :] No new poems yet sorry. :/



Love,
Rosa
Tasha
Ree
Gurney

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Valentines day

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.
Heart broken, mind open
(I can't remember the rest, but when I do. I'll put it up here. :])
I don't have much to do today.
I'm going to do something with Mitchell, and I don't know what it is.
I need to go to the store.
What are you doing today?

<3,
Tasharella.

Dear.
I haven't written in foreverr, but I still love you. :]] So I am really bored, at a crossroad and a dead end at the same time. I don't quite understand yet, and I don't know if I ever will. Now it's time I say farewell until next time. :]

<3,

Tasharella.

I know it's short and I'm sorry.

CAN I GET A WHOOT WHOOT.

Doubting myself as always
making a better window than a door
The door opens though doesn't it?
Letting you see a clearer view.
Perhaps letting the sun shine through.
Though I can't bring myself to think.
Of all of the times I let myself sink
or go to the brink
of insanity.
I sit in the dark
When the sun doesn't shine.
Clouds block it, playing the bully.
We will never understand fully.
How the earth was made,
maybe it was god that gave us life.
Or maybe something darker.
After all Humans are a savage beast.
Especially when they're in a panic.
Maybe it's just our way.
But I guess that's all for today.
Love, peace,
and chicken grease. :]

<3,
CAPTIAN AWESOME, RAWR, AND JACKSON ROBERTS. AKA newborn kittens

My lawwd, son.

Bonjourr personnes!,
Omg. This dumb Arab guy won't stop trying to chat with me! Oh yeah, and did I mention my day sucks. First of all. I don't speak Arabic!! Second of all, my cat should stop having babies. Third of all, I AM LOSING MY FRICKEN MIND. WHAAT ON EARTH AM I DOING. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. :[ i JUST WANT TO GO TO BED AND NOT WAKE UP FOR TEN YEARS. I AM SUPER AMAZING. I WANT PANDORUM. I DO THINK IT WOULD BE KIND OF COOL TO BE LOCKED UP IN A NUTHOUSE FOR A MONTH. I MAY PERHAPS BE A CRAZY CEREAL KILLER. SO FEAR MY WRATH.

And remember, I love you. :]]

<3,
Tasha Ree

How many? (originally for Mitch when he broke my heart, but now transfered to Josh's song)

How many heartbreaks
is it gonna take
for you to understand?

How many tears are gonna fall
before you call
and try to be a man?

Take all the girls you let cry,
you never even said goodbye.
I thought I loved you
now I'm sure that's not true

There I go
I'm lost you know
But you don't care
and I understand you there.
But I still wonder.

How many heartbreaks
is it gonna take
for you to understand?

How many tears are gonna fall
before you call
and try to be a man

I saw you today
you didn't look yourself
maybe that's okay
or you need some help.

You said you never cared
and you never will
so here I stand
and I stand here still
just wondering.

How many heartbreaks
is it gonna take
for you to understand?

How many tears are gonna fall
before you call
and try to be a man?

Cause I need to know
if I can let you go.
It's time to leave
you're no part of me.....

Backk. :]

I am actually single at the moment. :] I like it, but it seems so lonely. I am also a very jealous person, so the guy I do like, everytime I see a girl talk to him. I get super jealous. ://

<3
Tash